Still walking

The weekend feels like a long, dusty beaten path behind me. And wowee, was that path rocky with overgrown roots and the whole 9 yards.

Yesterday might have been the worst day of the weekend for me. The restaurant was quiet but I was serving the porch so I stayed rather steady. My customers were great and even though a server didn't show up to work the day wasn't half bad. It was the kitchen that ruined my Sunday evening. All though I strive to let the crude harrassment and criticism roll off my shoulders yesterday I broke. I failed. And let those unhappy men get to me.

Part of the reason why I was so sad and upset was that I was talking to the people at my tables, looking at the kind faces of such wonderful people. Only to have to return the kitchen where these men are cruel and hurtful. I couldn't keep the tears from streaming down my face. Because I don't understand why? Why are these men so cruel? How do people find enjoyment And how can some people be so so nice?

After all this I, somehow, feel that I can breathe a sigh of relief (sort of...I'm still fighting this cold) Now that Coast Guard is behind me. And through all the bumps in this past weekend I can say I'm still walking.  I'm not sure how I'll muster up the courage to go through the doors to work this evening but until I find a new job I'll do it. Because no matter how bad the situation is, it could be worse.

My newest motto: Nothing lasts forever. (Makes you think huh?)

On the plus side, (yes there is still a plus side) there is ONLY 2 months until I walk down the aisle to meet Ryan so that we can walk together for the rest of our lives. I am so very excited. And he is too. We're really looking forward to this next step in our life. As the days pass we become stronger and closer. We have so much we want to accomplish together.

It's going to be great!

There are lessons to be learned in every situation. I know I'm certainly learning some. I hope you are too.

Keep Loving. And walking the road of life, however bumpy and rooted it may be.