The computer just sucks me in.

I'm drawn to the computer. I can feel it pulling me to sit down and write, design, explore, gather resources, ideas, compile my thoughts and design some more. Even after sitting in front of a computer for 8 hours at work I am still drawn to the computer. I am loving work. My biggest struggle is time. As always, there isn't enough time.

I've been trying to brainstorm and come up with a way to start a new entry, to at least keep all of you informed. But I struggle to pull myself out of the marketing, social networking, graphic design work world. Most days my creative juices are flowing and I can't stop creating. Boo who who for me right?!

If time is my biggest complaint I'm doing pretty good right? I agree. Except for days when the creative fruit is all dried up. *wink*

So now you know work is going great. I continue to thrive and learn something new everyday. I feel like my love for work has a positive impact on my family life too. I am happier in myself and there for happier with my family. I don't feel like I'm missing something major as I was before.

In the car ride this morning R told me that he doesn't tell me enough how much he appreciates how far I've come. *big smile* Oh the frustrating days of job searching in between serving tables the same food from the same menu every single day. I am so thankful he had patience and was by my side the entire way.

Reflecting on the not so great times really makes me appreciate these times. It is a great feeling looking back and realizing the mountains we've climbed together. Not every day is bliss but a productive day at work makes for a bit of celebration.

Keep Loving.

Looking ahead.

After math of the wedding. It might be everything I expected. Or maybe not. Ryan and I are surely enjoying the honey moon phase. And we have shifted into a cloud 9, blissful and peaceful mindset.

I have to be honest, I was terrified that the wedding after math would be a little sad and depressing. That maybe I would feel less purpose after all those wedding decisions and waiting for the BIG day. I was afraid Id find myself sitting under a dark and gloomy rain cloud riddled with bordem.

I am happy to announce, that is not the case at all. In fact, its so much more than I thought it would be. I almost feel completely stress free. The mound of wedding stess has relieved. No more bride brain for this girl. (My sister will much appreciate that!)

Ryan is loving his job and is back to answering me in a loving tone (instead of an impatient stressed response). We are on the same page and taking the time to listen to each other again. Thank goodness.

Wedding planning was fun don't get me wrong. I enjoyed shopping with my great friend/wedding planner, Ali for the things that turned our ideas to real life touchable masterpieces. I loved having my nose in the most recent issue of Bride Magazine. But, it was stressful. Making the calls, the appointments, staying in contact with the caterer, photographer, dj, Men's warehouse, etc., etc. The choices too! Oh how many. All of which lead up to what could be the most important day of your life.

It was all worth it. I dont ever want to do it again, however. :)

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And now Ryan and I have big plans. We have set our goals high to reach financial stability. And once we conquer this goal our first "move" is to find and buy the house of our dreams.

As of right now I feel like it is going to be a long road. I have student debt as well as credit cards and current bills. But I have Ryan by my side who is willing to help. We are going in as a team!

So, a little honeymoon bliss and then back to reality. Living, learning and loving it.

Keep following.