What? 13?! You're 13 today. Officially a teenager and my mama heart is in shock. It's truly amazing that you're this healthy, tall, sassy, determined, teenager. You're making all your own choices and forging a path of your own. As your Mom, it's pretty cool to witness.
I'm 99% sure if you weren't thriving as a 13 year old my Mama heart would break because now, I can't fix everything. Cuddles and tickles once took away your tears but all of a sudden your emotions are big and "I don't get it." Even if, so much of what you're going through is like looking in the mirror at my adolescents.
With every new year of your life I learn 1,000 things, about you, about myself, about how to raise you, and how to love you best. And with every year you change so much, showing us how smart, creative and silly you are again and again.
In the blink of an eye you went from dancing in pretty dresses to singing Weezer at the top of your lungs.
You once loved the stuffed animals with "the big eyes and little bodies," to using a squish mellow for a pillow. Your stuffed animal collection never ends.
Your video game choices are typically Dandy's World, 99 Nights in the Forest, and Cookie Kingdom or something like that. Which just reminds me of Cookie Swirl C videos you and Grandma watched on repeat when you were still small enough to fit in our laps.
You remind me of your big sister, with your boy shorts and sometimes I see her smile in your smile, her personality in yours.
You went from hating school to a brand new school where you finally got excited to go, even if it means it's because you made a handful of new friends that are 'your people.' Everyone told me you just need to find your people and I thank God that day was the first day of school this year.
You're still marching to the beat of your own drum. Right now that looks like band t-shirts, fuzzy short hair, graphic novels, "Kandi" bead bracelets and coloring your nails with black Sharpie. Dad said, no more drawing all over your skin.
You're so passionate about your people, your YouTube channel and your cats (still). You are not passionate about food but we're always gently encouraging you to choose a fruit to go with your funnyuns. But somedays I wonder if you'll turn into a Wesco slushie - even if we limit them to one a week.
You asked me last week if you can take a Gap year this year. Oh bug, you're so silly! However, you are insistent you will not be going to college and you will own your own business. I have no doubt in my mind that will be true 5 years down the road. I just hope you let me design your logo. ;)
I have a feeling your going to bring us even more lessons, joy and love through your teen years. As much as I miss your chubby cheeks and toddler giggles I know I'll miss these years too. So, I'm holding onto every day of your first year of a teenager.
We are so very very proud of the girl you are and the passion you carry with you. Always sweet and creative, sometimes silly and sensitive. Happy 13th Birthday, bug!
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