Especially, when she is in her crib, in the dark, all alone. All I can think about is that she is so alone in the dark. I picture her standing up, holding on to the railing of her crib, tears streaming down her face and my heart breaks. Yes, I know, it's for the best and there are a lot more worse things in the world. Those two, very long, minutes seem like an hour. I have to force my self to stay calm and wait for her to settle down and give in to sleep.
This is how our nights have been this week. Edee no longer falls asleep when drinking a bottle. I can tell she is hungry because she still drinks about 6-7 ounces. But, no longer does she nod off and is sound asleep when the bottle is empty. Now, she acts fully energized and ready for more play time. So, we have resorted to kissing her good night and laying her in her crib. The crying doesn't last long at all, but, it feels like too long. Then, all of a sudden..silence. And she's out for the night.
I always go in to check on her and she is usually sound asleep, in some cock-eyed position. Which, makes me want to scoop her up and cradle her to show her I still love her. But, I know better.
I know it's just another stage. I think this stage is probably a good sign too. Soon enough we will be weening her from the bottle and she won't be able to use that as a means of falling asleep. So over all, I think I am okay with this stage.
And I do love my full nights rest.
Keep Loving.
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