Baby bump and getting over the hump.

The sun is shining, the warm air outside is perfect. I'm in my comfy clothes and it feels good. It's the perfect morning to sit down and update all of you wonderful followers on my pregnancy days.

Unless this "little peanut" (as my friend Ali calls her) growing inside me decides to hibernate a little longer I have LESS than 4 months to go!! At this point of my pregnancy I feel like I can do this! I am over half way there. And I can't believe it. She is moving so much now. Sometimes it takes my breath away when she kicks a few times in a row. She will either be hyper kid as Maddi says or ballerina. Other times when she is still for half of a day I wonder what's going on in there. Her daddy says she's just a sleepy head like her mom.

I feel like each day is a work in progress. Which, I guess it is. Somedays, like today, I'll feel great. My biggest hurdles are eating enough and carrying trays of food at work. Other days I feel totally defeated (as if it's a race or something). These days I'm a blimp with back pain, rib pain, leg cramps and a soar tailbone. I don't know whether to sit down or stand up. These are the days when the simplest gesture from Ryan; a bubble bath, a hot meal, a 2 minute back rub or when he kisses my belly and says, "Good Morning Baby," make the grey days a little brighter.

Even though I feel strong, excited and I can't wait to meet my daughter I am still SO scared of going through labor. I won't allow myself to focus too hard on my fear of child birth because then I feel overwhelmed and even more terrified. Maybe if I fear giving birth enough that once it's hear it won't seem so bad. *wink*  Honestly though, if I think about the obstacles I've overcome so far I know I can do this!

Instead of dwelling on my fear I've been reading some really great books (Thank you Cody for ALL the reading material) to fill my brain with as much knowledge about the inevitable as possible. One of these books that is seriously amazing is by Ina May Gaskin. If you are an expecting Mother (or Father) I recommend taking a peek into this midwife's amazing works. What I've read so far has really opened my eyes. I'm learning a lot. Knowledge is power, right?

I'd say we are definitely on the road to preparing for Baby E to come into our lives. I guess in a way she already has. With the books, greeting cards, adorable little shoes, hats and onesies, well wishes and the excitement from loved ones this little baby's presence is here and her arrival is definitely one we are looking forward too.

Keep loving.