Waiting...

Friday. June 24.

We're sitting in the lobby @ Morning Star. It's another cloudy day in Grand Haven. And it's rather cold too. Maybe that is why we decided on a delicious bite to eat at our favorite FAVORITE restaurant.

Today has started out to be a not so pleasant kind of day. I think it's the massive clouds hovering above us. Then again maybe this day is just a closing to a series of unfortunate events. 

I've been stressed to the max these passed few days. I feel like anyone around me (co-workers, family, friends) can all sense this. As if I have a "Linus" (Charlie Brown's blanket carrying friend) dusty ora surrounding me. I feel like the stress is like crashing waves taking me over. The weight continues to get heavier and heavier. I hate being stressed out. Work gets harder, communication is rocky, listening is a chore, I'm emotional and extra sensitive. I second guess myself. (Should I go on? Probably not.) Letting myself be stressed out just complicates life. I just can't seem to get away from it the past few days.

And today it's caught up to Ryan too. Ahh! Do you think we need a vacation?? I certainly do.

It's crazy to think I might be actually staying positive. I don't feel like the world is out to get me or that life sucks. It's just another one of those things. Maybe these hardships we keep running into seem so much more difficult because we're financially strapped and trying to plan a wedding and move forward.

I'm really not sure. But we're certainly trying to take steps in the right directions...

I can only hope that tomorrow will be a better day. And you know what, tomorrow IS a NEW day.

Keep loving. We are.