Life as you know it.

When I was growing up (around the age in which you are old enough to make a baby), my Mom would say [about getting pregnant], "life as you know it is over." It was a threat. And it worked. I mean what Mom wants to help her child take care of a child or watch her child drop out of school and try to raise a baby. She knew the secrets of raising babies. I mean she did it SIX TIMES! 

What she didn't tell me was the other half of that saying. "Life as you know it is over...And a whole new life begins."

My life is...I am not sure I can even say my life. Because two months ago my life was not like it is now. Now Im a mom. 

Edee has been a part of our lives for 2 months now. And everyday something new happens. A new happiness, a new struggle, a new development in her. Everyday Ive learned something new. About myself, about being a Mom, about my relationship with Ryan and about Edee. Its like nothing I ever thought it would be.

I now believe there is a Mom switch. And it turns on as soon as that baby cries for the first time. If your not a mom you wouldn't believe it either. Some how I can wake up from a dead sleep if Edee is fussing just a little bit. And the thing they say about learning what cry means what...yeah, its true. Its amazing. 

Yeah I miss being able to grab up my yarn and loom whenever I want. Or curl up on the couch and nap or read or watch a movie. Instead I grab up Edee and hold her or find a new way to make her smile. I only curl up if she is sleeping. And then all I want to do is sleep. But, the joy I feel when Edee is happy is more incredible than anything Id feel from a nap, a book or a finished craft. 

My new life...its amazing. 

Keep loving.