Rome wasn't built in a day.

I have a confession. I might be crazy. Or maybe I'll try anything twice before I write it off for good. I suppose you could say I'm big on second chances. To put it straight: I met with my previous manager (ex-manager for a week) and got my job back.

I'm bonkers right? ...well, give me a chance to explain. Maybe it will all be worth it in the end.

Firstly, I've had the most enjoyable week off to think, contemplate, rest and most importantly, get healthy.

I've realized what some might consider my weaknesses: sensitivity, caring and listening, might have caught up with me. With this particular event these qualities might as well be deemed a weakness. But it's these same qualitied that make me who I am, the reason kids are drawn to me and one of the reasons why Ryan loves me. That's why I'm not dissatisfied with these traits. In all honesty I'm fully aware of my sensitive nature and how I take everything to heart. If I'm very careful and pay close attention I don't allow these things to control my life. But stress and feeling overwhelmed forced my guards to fall and brought me to a breaking point I didn't know I had
Key words here: didn't know I had.

This brings me to my second point.
Secondly, I'm more aware of my happiness, satisfaction and mental state than I was before. I know what I can handle mentally and how far I can be pushed. Most importantly I've felt the signs. I know now when enough is enough.

And lastly, I'm wide awake. I feel enlightened after meeting with my manager. I see a different perspective now. I'm also reminded of the big picture that is so easily lost when a mind is clouded.

All in all I need to remember to stay focused on my own duties, my own job, communicate and remember to take one step at a time.

I know I have a long way to go. But i feel that having the ability to step back and look at the big picture is a hard thing to do but takes a unique person to do so.

I tripped rather hard this time. I'm still standing but have yet to take my first steps. Tomorrow I shall, with confidence (not to much) and positivity.

Keep loving.